faggot.

2011-04-07T23:21:00.003+08:00

I almost feel like i can see cyber dust on this site.

And i only come back for one reason. The reason has always been the same and till now it doesnt change. Hurr-.-

My heart would probably always ache for you.

No matter how awful you get. Im still always here. I still miss the stupid silly things. Like calling you after work and how you'll go like HELLOOO! And if i say Hi baby, you'll go Hee hiiiii. Okay anyway i know i shouldnt be saying all these. Im not expecting anything out of anything. I mean i know youre just...lonely and you need attention and who better than me right? -shrugs.

I just miss valerie. The valerie whom i love with all my heart and would always drop everything for her.

I just hope you'll never get hurt by any of those pretty boys.

2010-10-14T22:55:00.001+08:00

Its the way you do the things you do that makes me fall in love with you.

2010-09-30T00:06:00.002+08:00

Im over it.
But when i see you.
It still hits me.
Like the first time.
It still hits me,
and i dont know why.
Its like theres so much to say.
But we just look at each other
and our eyes do all the talking.

2010-09-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

I don't really get it,
Maybe its just me over looking things too much.
But,
You were the one who gave up and walked out.
Then again, I'm probably just reading too much into it.
It took me a long painful time to turn away.
You know that?
No.
You never truly knew how I looked at you.
You.were.everything.

2010-07-15T23:34:00.001+08:00

Whee.

Im so tired and so it momo therefore, he is like a lil piglet beside me. I still can remember how you wanted to kill him the first time you stayed after i got him. And the following time, he actually slept with you.

Hahaha.

Cute.

I need a haircut.

Goodnight folks.

2010-07-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

I found the sweetest thing of all and i thought to myself one day it'll be worth dying for so im glad i knew her at all.

You'll always be different im sure. Special.

Even after everything.

I should really go to bed cause i think my tummy is waking up!!

Cheers(:

2010-07-12T21:30:00.003+08:00

Ive stopped feeling much. Like i dont really care that you hang out with them. As in, ive come to terms with that. Really. Till i saw one of them, on your bed, hugging your bolster. What happened to " I dont let just anyone lie on my bed and hug my bolster" I guess, its not just anyone.

Fuck myself for even feeling upset about it.

You wouldnt even flinch at the sight of this.

You wouldnt even care.

You dont care.

2010-07-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

"Its the 11th of nov today and it has been two yrs and i'm still loving you! Hehe.
I am gg to the lib and gym! Have a nice day :)"

2010-07-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

Remind me again, why??

2010-07-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

What? Has it been like..i dont know, 10 years?

Me.

Does that matter?

Me.

Hurr.

Momo, honey. Just get better already.

Youre stressing me out im getting my zits ):

2010-06-30T22:06:00.001+08:00

How was your papers?

Were they manageable?

Last paper coming up right?

Must be excited.

How are things at home?

Grams okay?

Dad still...?

Has she left?

And,

How are you?

2010-06-28T21:39:00.003+08:00

Hello.

10 years from now i want to be working with the big wild animals enjoying every second of that and have a small car, 2 cats, 2 dogs and an income which would help me make ends meet. And maybe, you'll still be around. I dont really know as what. But just still be around. I dont know.

I wana have a lazy movie day.

Who wants to join?

Blogging has sum up to the same as talking to myself in my room.

Cheers.

Oohh!

I saw this post, it says. The sweetest thing someone ever said was"I get jealous when someone else hugs you, because for that one moment theyre holding my world."

Something like that.

Its kinda true.

And stupid.

And true.

Naiveeeeee-.-

2010-06-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?

2010-06-19T19:43:00.000+08:00

You don't have to be so hard. I'm just trying to help. Is it so hard to just be a little nicer about it? I don't think I'm making things difficult am I? I'm just trying to help you because, seeing you in this heap of mess hurts. It hurts and I just wana help.
Okay I know.
You're grumpy about things and I just needed to blurt out my rants.

2010-06-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

2010-06-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hello there, what's on your mind?

2010-06-13T23:42:00.000+08:00

Why do you have to smell so darn nice all the time? Its so hard not to look at you.
Anyway I can't stand work and the drama that comes along with it. I think something needs to be done and has to be done soon!! I hate drama and work is becoming a daily chore.
And you!
Hello.....(:

2010-06-13T00:30:00.001+08:00

Who knew?

2010-06-12T00:26:00.001+08:00

Holding hands, whispering to each other, giggling, cuddling,sneaking kisses, gazing at you like we're in our own small little bubble. Escalators.
That's what I miss most being out with you.

2010-06-12T00:26:00.000+08:00

Holding hands, whispering to each other, giggling, cuddling,sneaking kisses, gazing at you like we're in our own small little bubble. Escalators.
That's what I miss most being out with you.

2010-06-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

Work have been really taxing and I come home feeling really beat and I am sick so that makes work worst. I'm so sleepyyyyy.
I miss hanging out with you.
Mostly, I miss you.
Just being around you. The you I used to know.

2010-06-09T15:31:00.001+08:00

And i wished you would too.

2010-06-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

I had such a crazy day, you wana hear about it? Guess not. Goodnight.
Coughing sucks. My cat is secretly a demon in disguised. I am fucking glad I get an off day tmr cause I could use it.
I feel like I have a lot to say, but I don't know how they should come out.
What are you thinking of tonight? I know, french. Hahaha (:
I love you, do you know that.
(:

2010-06-06T13:02:00.001+08:00

Hi you.

Youre being missed, you know that?

2010-06-06T00:53:00.001+08:00

Where are you?

2010-06-04T23:21:00.003+08:00

I think im falling sick and im bleeding down south and work sorta sucks but im too lazy to talk about it. I didnt really wana gym, i just wanted to see you. Tennis looks really fun i think i might try it. Im so tired my throat hurts and im gona die waking up to it tmr. Ive got a tissue stuck in one nose.

Did you hear what i said before closing the door??

Byebye.

ZZ

2010-06-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

I could do this everyday and it wouldn't kill me. I could live with the past weeks. It felt so normal. Like a natural thing. Work tmr again and its a long day. Wonder what you're gona get up to. I've developed some sort of fear asking about him, instead I wait for you to tell me. I'm waiting for my turn to shower cause mom takes forever. You're fast asleep n it feels funny not talking to you right before I go to bed. Even if its for a text.

Goodnight you.

2010-05-31T22:05:00.003+08:00

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time

Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time and hung me on a line

Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you.

Maybe even just for that short moment with nothing at the end of it all, its worth it.

Maybe.

Please be okay. Things will get better. Just dont lose hope and live. Keep your grandma going with you and k.

I'll be here and theres nothing i can do. But i will do everything in my power if you need help.

I still, love you.

2010-05-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

Time traveller.

Thats what i'll be.

Today, was an eventful day which im glad i was able to be there for you the whole day. Really. I'll do it again and im sorry youve got to go through this with me not being able to do much. But i'll do everything i can to help and you know that. Stay strong, just breathe, just live.

I love you.

2010-05-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

This song is so old school!

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I feel
You don't know

Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the sad songs ain't so sad
I only wish that there was more than that
About me and you

[Bridge]
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
That you thought was gay
No I can't find the words cause I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em
And let's get messed up and listen to probably...

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you
About me and you
About me and you
About me and you
About me and you
About me and you

I shopped quite a bit today my feet dropped off.(Haha)

I love you.

2010-05-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

Its okay, we just...well travelled back for awhile. Its okay. We dont have to talk about it.
It was sweet.
Funny how can something so wrong feels so right all at the same time.

I feel so shag today. I slept till half past noon but still i feel like it isnt enough. Must be all that odd hours sleeping less than 6hrs a day. Sigh. I wana start planning from my next holiday. I feel so...idontknow everyday now. Probably from the lack of sleep. So much running about to do to finish up everything with regards to grams. Im so tired.

I just want everything to be simple and okay.

Goodnight love.

2010-05-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

Hello

The wake is finally over. Ashes etc all gotten back. Everything done in one day. No more crying(i hope). It has been a crazy week for us all but it was nice to bond and catch up with the cousins. It hasnt quite settled yet that grams isnt around anymore. I mean..i dont know. And passing by the hospice everyday i go to work sure isnt gona help. We'll all miss her but shes at a better place now that im sure. No more pain. I just hope the family stays together.

Today there were lots of running about. Going here and there rushing. I was really tired by the end of it all. Sorry you waited so long online for nothing. Momo is in the closet and i cant kidnap him cause David is sleeping there. It has been so warm. I wished i was in nz now. I feel like a bloody heater.Haha sigh. I feel so mundane and my body clock is sorta screwed up from all the odd hours the past few days. I finally got around washing my old navy tee shirts. Cant wait to see if it fits. Hahah i keep thinking its a sat tmr. Oh well. I feel like i need to disappear for a while. But i know its just like at the moment kinda thing. Oh i saw Donna Koh n a bunch of stc girls sending some girl off at the airport. Do you know donna koh?

Anyway, yes i do not know what youre feeling and that doesnt make it any easier. Dont get me wrong. Its just a random feeling/thought.

Sigh.

I guess i should head to bed now.

BB.

PS:
Thanks Gwen for coming down today to give me a surprise support. I love youuuuuu!

2010-05-27T01:27:00.002+08:00

Do you remember the last time?
It was a long hard one. Because I knew it'll be the last. 3 times cause I love you I said and you giggled. Wearing that yellow junk food tee I got you.
I replay silly moments like this because I don't ever want them to be forgotten. Which again, is childish. You're not 71. You've got a long way to make new memories that will over take these ones.

Sometimes texting you seems like I'm texting a stranger with things left unsaid. But when I see you, it comes rushing back. How did we landed up in this? Funny.

Anyway with that being said, grams goes tmr. I really wished you could have been there by my side. But you owe me nothing now. Well not owe but you get my drift.

Okay goodnight pretty face.

2010-05-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

Nights are the hardest.
I miss you so much.
Thanks for coming today. I was thinking about it yesterday and you suddenly said you'll pop by. It was a pleasant "surprise" though the weather really wasnt in our favor. It hurts to see you so upset and looking so gloomy. Wheres that pretty heart warming smile? Feel better soon and im here if you need to talk. I hope things gets better for you. If i could wrap you in a bubble, i would. So that you wouldnt have to take anything negative. Okay im starting to make you roll your eyes im sure.
I have an ulcer thats like a bitch ):

Goodnight beautiful.

2010-05-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

Lighting struck, now its silent and dark
Like to try to light a candle
But for that I'd need a spark

Our luck changed, dont know what
Dont know when,
but it changed, and now its hard
Not to dwell on memories

I know we'll grow, but we'll never bloom again
I'm sure we'll grow, but we'll never bloom again.

Now its cold on my side of the bed
Though you're near, you're far away
Partly here, partly gone

Our luck changed,I dont know why
Dont know when, I wonder where we would end up
If we could start again

I know we'll grow, but we'll never bloom again
I'm sure we'll grow, but we'll never bloom again.

I know we'll grow, but we'll never bloom again
I'm sure we'll grow, but we'll never bloom again

2010-05-24T05:10:00.001+08:00

A little disappointing but better than nothing.

My beloved grandma passed on at 5ish am yesterday and everything was just a whirlpool after. My eyes are dry,sore and aching from crying. It kinda blocks out the other pain I feel. But together, they're both equally heart breaking. Its 5am now and I just finished my shift downstairs n showered. Now lying in bed with my snoring sister. What are the odds of me being grumpy tmr? I'm so tired.
Liane, Gwen, Mary, Clara and Rina dropped by and I thank you girls for coming. I really appreciate it. Esp clara cause I missed you so much n it was nice n comforting to see you again. Thursday would be another difficult day,the send off.

Hello you,
I know you probably don't come here anymore? I don't know. Anyway, thanks for saying hi before going dinner with godma. It was..well mixed feelings seeing you at first. Then it all came flowing back. I wished he wouldn't treat you like that. You do not deserve it, you're more than that but I get it, you lead your own life now. But you can do better than that. Anyway you had an awesome dinner, hope your sleep was sweet too. Have a good day at school.

Xoxo

2010-05-23T03:05:00.003+08:00

Hi there,

Today was a pretty long day. Im bushed. We had one of the hospitalized cat collapsed on us 15mins to closing time. We were all packed up ready to go but she wasnt looking good so we decided to do bloods and in the midst of it all, she went into cardiac arrest and soon respiratory arrest and well..she passed on. Really old stray with renal failure. I only got off at 7pm but David and Marilyn came and got me. David took a slightly longer but nice drive home. We went through this road with no traffic lights and its was just trees and the reservoir beside. It was really nice with the sun almost down.

Anyway, overall work was well..alright. I couldnt sleep till late so im tired. My dark eye rings are awful. How was training? It was raining. Did you guys manage to do much and oh..cycling too? Hmm anyhow, im sure you guys had a good day.

I got home nearly around 8ish, went to grams and they dont think she'll live through the weekend, but i think she will pull through till at least mid of next week? I dont know. Shes already barely there. I had a bit for dinner and just sat around for a bit before leaving. What was for dinner?

I went out with Liane and Sam instead of Jo and the rest, cause i wasnt up for Zouk as half of sg would be there and i dont fancy clubbing. So we went to Sams place for a bit then to town, cine and ended up at holland. It was so quiet its amazing! Oh and cause cine carpark is so tight, i got some paint on the car as i hit the post thingie turning into the park! /: ive not told mom. Dont really know how she'll take it. Haha its not THAT bad. But you can see the white paint-like scratches. So anyway we sat at Coffee bean for a bit just catching up and left around 2ish. Dropped Sam and Liane home and came back. So here i am now. And its 3.15am already. Momo is so tired he kept calling me to bed but have given up and is now sleeping in the closet for warmth since im not in bed. Lol that cutie. Hows tomato? I miss that ratbag.

What you gona do tmr? Im probably gona go run and stay at grams and i dont know. Read. Well whatever youre doing, have a good day and have fun. Im sure you will anyway(:

Mom is so emotional about grams i dont know whats gona happened when grams pass on. Sigh.

Okay goodnight, hope youre sleeping well now.

xoxo

2010-05-21T22:43:00.003+08:00

Because its not easy to just suddenly stop talking to someone youve been talking to almost every day for what seems like forever, im gona "talk"to you here till i get used to it.

Hi,

Today was really warm, tiring and almost impossible to pass. I only got to bed around 1ish and woke up at 5am for no good reason and couldnt go back to bed. Isnt that annoying? I ended up with blood shot eyes and falling asleep during an ultrasound. LOL but it was a short ultrasound just scanning the dogs prostate so it wasnt that bad. But my knees kept giving way. Im still at the back as usual and because the treatment area doesnt have an aircon, i smelt so gross after work. We did quite a few surgeries today. Pretty busy i would say.

Hope tennis with your friends was fun. Im sure it was and youre probably a whole lot tanner now.

We ended on time and mom picked me up because she didnt want me to go out, which made me grumpy. Grams...isnt in the best of shape now. They say its short days we're looking at now. I wanted to text you. But i know, i said i wouldnt speak to you cause thats what you want. Its so hard, how everyone sees the way im taking this grieve differently. By trying to distant myself. But i just feel even more miserable seeing her lying there as good as dead.

I still think about you alot which would take a while to get over. Im sorry if i was harsh yesterday. I wasnt expecting anything when you came back being all idontknow. I told myself not to. But i guess some where inside i did thus the reaction. A part of me is happy for you. That youve found someone you really fancy and see a future with. But of course it aches. Its not me. But i get it, your still young and i cant tie you down. So thank you, for taking all my crazy reactions to it. But its never easy to watch someone whom you held so close love another, so im sure you understand.

How was your day? Im sure it was a better one than mine. Im dreading work tmr because i dont know why either.

I wonder if youre still gona reply my letter which you owe me. Okay the answer is no i guess. Hahah

Have fun tmr. Im sure you will.

xoxo.

2010-05-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

What a stupid fucking fool.

2010-05-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

I wish I had the guts to just leave and walk away from this, forgetting everything we ever had. But I know you wouldn’t come after me, and that’s what hurts the most.

2010-05-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

You dont even know her. So dont say such stuff.

Fuck you, you fucking gaylord.

2010-05-13T22:42:00.001+08:00

Hello

2010-05-12T23:06:00.001+08:00

I love the way my fingers just fall into yours. I love how your taste still lingers on my lips after that special goodnight kiss. I love how whenever I go to call someone I automatically dial your number. I love how you look at me with those gorgeous eyes and then you smile that sweet smile. I know right there that you will always be mine. I love how you hug me with the intention of never letting go. I love you more than words could ever show.

Cheese balls.

2010-05-12T01:03:00.000+08:00

Goodnight, beautiful world.

2010-05-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

We used to be so happy, nothing could break us.

What happened?

2010-05-07T22:00:00.003+08:00

How do you do it so easily? Just not think about it at all.
How did you say stuff and just forget it all with just a snap of the fingers?
How do you sleep? Cause i sure as hell cant.
How can you..just walk away?
How could you have said all those stuff?
How did you pretend it all.
How am i gona get over this damn fucking issue.
Yes get on with life.
Easy for you to say.
You never felt anything.
You wont even bother defending yourself.
Cause its nothing to you now.
It doesnt matter.
Might never have.
Im venting.
I will regret posting this right after i click post.
I will still love you more than before after saying how much you suck.
I will still care for you even though i know you dont.
I still speak to you even though it hurts.
I want to know things even though its bad.
I dont know where this is going.
I just need to speak to someone.
But at the same time, i dont want to talk and whine about the same thing.
I just need to get over my damn self.
You probably wont speak to me after seeing this.
And thats just gona suck.
Oh well.
Either ways.
Its bad already.

Argh.

Just.the.thought.of.you.and.that.thing.makes.me.want.to.just.get.hit.by.a.car.and.come.back.as.a.cat.
I hate the damn fucking stupid sport cheer song they keep playing.

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Btw guess what?

My grandma is dying. What a nice thing to top it off.
Life is such a fucking chore.

2010-05-06T22:34:00.001+08:00

Ive got a headache and all i can think about is you.

Im so -.-/ 0.0

2010-05-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

I want you to remember the feel of my hair and remember the scent of my perfume I always wear. Remember my laugh and how sweet our kisses used to be. Remember the way that you used to love me.

2010-05-04T23:17:00.001+08:00

Could i have loved you better?

2010-05-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

Why do i feel so god damn miserable?

Now lets not go to pathetic.

2010-05-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

I.cant.do.it.

2010-05-02T10:25:00.001+08:00

OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. LORDY LORDY GODDDDD.

2010-05-02T03:24:00.000+08:00

If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
We always had time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've gotta make it last

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday

If you leave, I won't cry
I won't waste a single day
But if you leave, don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've gotta say you will

One.more.night.

2010-04-30T23:46:00.002+08:00

I dont wana hold you down but i dont want to lose you either.

So what do i do now?

I dont wana seem like a total crazy person but i cant help myself.

Really.

I dont wana act like i dont miss you.

But i am, most of the time.

I dont want to act like i dont care cause its silly to play games.

And i care a whole lot about too damn much.

I dont wana ever have to lose you.

But i will...

And when that happens, whats next?

As cheesy as it'll sound. I dont know how to plan a day when youre not in my plans anymore.

So emo-gosh-.-

2010-04-27T23:36:00.001+08:00

I felt like a total loser,idiot you name it, i felt it.

Every inch of it.

2010-04-04T13:27:00.002+08:00

Ive been feeling so nua and ive got a pimple on my chin and work tmr and a very cute cat who wanted to chase the birds outside the window today and i live on the highest floor meaning 25th and im feeling really nua.

Valerie doesnt like me/eating macs but im feeling it.

Fatttttttyyyyyyyyy.

Byebye.

Nobody reads blogs or journals anymore.

2010-03-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hold yourself together mabellllllllllllllllllllllll.

2010-03-21T14:11:00.000+08:00

I do, but do you?

2010-03-15T21:11:00.003+08:00

What adorble little bubs in my life.

2010-03-14T11:27:00.001+08:00

Bloop.

2010-03-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

HA HA HA.

2010-03-05T22:42:00.002+08:00

Updates of my recent events:

1) I had quality time with family(all 5 around) for 2 weeks.
2) Started work right after and work is at Upper thomson which actually, it isnt that far.
3) Girlfriendddddddd.Hahahaha
4) Got myself a new pet. Momo the kitten melissa picked up from downstairs cause she just couldnt help herself.
5) Grams in and out for hospital.
6) I miss the girlfriend.

Okay now im off to call her.

Cheers!

2010-02-20T13:23:00.000+08:00

What happens when insecurities kicks in?

2010-02-16T14:15:00.002+08:00

Cny is over rated, period cramps on the other hand is a big friggin chore for all females. Hurr. Im super sian. Relatives are over and my sister has escaped to grannys place.Haha!Im locked up in my room rotting.

Okay

Cheers!

2010-02-15T00:33:00.001+08:00

S:That had to suck.

M:Yeah..it kinda did.

Period cramps are f-ed up and cny is so dot dot D.Haha though i am really happy to have the family all together again after 10 long fucking years.

Cheers!

2010-02-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

SO CUTE HORRRR

2010-02-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

I knocked my knee today and it hurt so bad ): It felt like i knocked it out of place or something! Its still sore now.

2010-02-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

2010-02-05T22:35:00.001+08:00

Oh, dakota
I know our love is new
I barely know ya
I've fallen over you
It's the way you do the things you do
That made me fall in love with you
Dakota, are you in love with me too?

This song is stuck in my headdddddddd. I am one very sleepy girl.

Cheers!

2010-02-03T23:48:00.001+08:00

I guess not.

2010-02-01T23:26:00.001+08:00

Just shrug it off.

2010-01-31T23:45:00.002+08:00

Im having block nose and its annoying.My ears are like stuffed up too.
Siannnnn.

Tim sum at greatworld crystal jade, walked around and then home. Watched sisters keeper and it was alright but i dont remember much of the book so yeah. Oh got 2 berms from heeren yesterday with jo n sam n joyce and 2 tops from zara today.Haha i wana get new sneakers leh.Haha

Okay im feeling very nua now.

Cheers!

2010-01-31T18:52:00.002+08:00

Like a fishing net she'll cast you out

and pull you back when there's enough.

2010-01-25T20:04:00.002+08:00

From my flight back, like an hour or so before touch down. The view was better than the pictures but its the best i could get. Haha thats what i like about plane rides(:

Yesterday at valeries:
I was helping her put eye drop

Val: Omg no no no pain!
Mabel: -.-I havent even do anything!

When i finally did,

Val: Omg so painnnnnnnnnnn my eyes cannot open!(She was looking at me with eyes wide open)
Mabel: Erm but your eyes are open.
Val: Its gona close now(then she close her eyes)

HAHAHAHAHA
Okay i found it really funny.

Okay cheers!

2010-01-24T00:49:00.003+08:00

Warning: Cheese alert.

Because I am better like that.

Thank you for everyday that you give.

2010-01-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

I was like a bobble head in the plane.
HAHA

Pfft.

2010-01-14T04:28:00.002+08:00

I just came back from posting box n closing account.
I didnt sleep at all. I "woke" up at 7 and it was an absolute shit hole outside.
Mel drove to work, dropped Yewj and i went to post the box, bank then home.
I still cant believe i feel alright when i didnt sleep at all.
Its fucking amazing.
Haha

Okay now back to packing.

Its okay. I'll be fine.

2010-01-13T21:57:00.001+08:00

Charity work much?

2010-01-11T19:26:00.001+08:00

Have a goodnight.

2010-01-11T11:51:00.004+08:00

So yesterday i said a really hard goodbye to Chloe and today these 3 monkeys. With the kittens it isnt as difficult cause they dont really care that much, well i mean, they forget. They wouldnt remember me in a couple of weeks time evem though they were born n brought up in my room. Thats how cats are like. They forget easily. Great isnt it? Its a great life to be a cat i always think.

As for chloe, she cried(meh) for us so violently as i walked away, trying to get over the fence, running along it to try to get to us. Its...really heartbreaking. And when we left. She just stood at the fence watching the van drive away. Just stood there. My heart broke :C i know im being down right pathetic but im a sucker for animals and its worst when i get way too attached to them. They take up an important place in my life and its hard when i have to leave them. So now i have my room back again but i never did really mind it being taken up by my fellow feline mates. They snuggle up with me, they piss me off by running around like elephants in the morning and when i scream STOP!They all stop in their tracks and crawl into bed with me. All finding a little spot under covers for themselves. I'll miss all of that. I'll miss those times Chloe jumped onto my bed n Meh right into my face to wake me. Running away from me when im trying to get her diaper on, trying to head butt me cause she thinks im playing with her. Jumping up on me and try to find a finger to suckle on n nibble on. How she allows me to lie on her all day while she chew on her cud. Shes one hell of a sheep. How that one time we left her on the deck n she used the dog door to get into the house n had the comfort of my bed and when i came back she so cheeky meh-ed at us and of course, ever since leaving the dog door open is near impossible if we didnt want her inside. How when she hurt herself that one time she was sulking in Jak's kennel n didnt want to come out till i went out in the rain to say hi n shower her with kisses.

Now its really a sheep's life for her. No more kisses, no more kennel to run into and lastly, no one to spoil her and still feed her milk before bed time. But i know shes in good hands and wont be sent to the works and the couple who took her in Maxine n Steve are really nice people and they have a really nice place too.

I want to have my own small lifestyle block in future.

Okay sorry this entry is kinda emotional.Hahaha
Im just a sucker for animals.
Good or bad?You decide(:

Cheers!

2010-01-08T20:21:00.001+08:00

Tummy ache tummy ache,
please go away :C

2010-01-08T17:32:00.000+08:00

Express yourself, please?

2010-01-07T22:51:00.002+08:00

I wish all this fucking drama would stop.
Either that or just let this year pass already cause,
Ive had enough of it.

2010-01-06T20:47:00.001+08:00

Probably the last one you sent me.Haha(:

2010-01-06T09:18:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3QNKt7JKGIU

I think Emma Watson is pretty and she does kinda suit the Burberry clothes range.

2010-01-05T18:11:00.002+08:00

I feel so betrayed. Geez.

I have photos to upload but im lazyyy. The kittens are killing me, my feet is soreeee. Dont be fooled by their tiny claws!Pfft.

Wont be long now.

2010-01-04T20:05:00.001+08:00

Bleah.

I really miss you.

2010-01-04T16:03:00.004+08:00

Unglam.Haha was really windy.

All my little babies. All leaving possibly this weekend :C

I'll be truly alone then. Okay well i still have the other monkeys but these 3 kittens sleep with me.Haha i nick name them Ah pui, Ah black n Ah san. And Ah san seems attached to me which breaks my heart.Haha he is the first one to greet me before his other 2 brothers when i go into the room or wake up or going to bed. He sleeps with me and also, they all like to eat my ankles, climb my pj pants n eat my shoes.Haha

Cuties.

Forgot to add, these photos are way over due.

2010-01-03T20:50:00.002+08:00

Is it hard for you?
You know, not talking.
Cause, it is for me.
Even though i say i wont.
Its hard.
Because, youre always the reason why im on anyway.
And now, all i have is this blog to sulk and wallow in self pity at.

2010-01-03T16:36:00.004+08:00

"Call me foolish or whatever, but somehow. Somewhere, some part of me is still holding on to some sort of hope left from that whole time. Never ending questions flood though my head every damn second i have. I tire myself hard out to sleep in but it never last long. I still wake up early. I know i know i know. But i cant. You cant walk away like that, but you can. If you love/loved me enough you wouldnt. But you can."

You.Always.Can.

I wonder what youre doing now.

I wonder,

...

2010-01-01T19:32:00.001+08:00

Nothing.

2010-01-01T13:46:00.001+08:00

2010?
Ha.
Hope everyone had a good one though(:

I must have been that bad.

2009-12-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

bebeeee
:)

2009-12-24T19:17:00.002+08:00

I really cannot describe how much i hate having my period. It disrupts my sleep like im not having problems sleeping already-.-Anywayyyy, ive been enjoying the nice weather here. Sun n all that jazz. Took the dogs to the beach yesterday n i had fun n so did they im sure. Im so gutted ive missed valerie the two times that she came online but i cant blame anything else but myself, when shes not around, i hardly ever use the computer cause i am far too lazy. Hahaha. I use Mel's desktop in the day but dont stay on long cause i rather watch dvd al day n enjoy the sun outside.

Im super sian.

Doesnt feel like Christmas at all i must say. But well, Merry Christmas to all. Hope everyone's having a good one.

Picnic with Jay's family n friends then we might go somewhere with the dogs again. Looking forward to that besides the fact that im bleeding down south.

SIANNNNNNNNNN. Period makes me sian. Im damn sian. My 3 foster kittens very cute. Have pictures BUT lazy.

Okay.

Cheers!

2009-12-14T18:31:00.002+08:00

Im feeling so...nothing?Hahaha anyway went to Gardens this morning but they werent too busy and i was really tired so i didnt stay till noon but instead left at half past eleven and went to Video ezy to borrow videos cause today its 1 for 1 dollar!Haha i borrowed 10.HAHAH cause thats the max. So i manage to fall sleep texting val yesterday but i didnt sleep long and i woke up to Bobbie's poop smell.HAHAHA!Sian la i bet i made my chinese tea too strong thats why, but then again ive been having problems falling asleep.Like i tried to nap when i got home but it didnt even last an hour?Hahah

Im talking to valerie on skype now and shes showing me her drawing.Hahah shes so retarded.

Home tml n its just dvd and me.Haha

Sian.

Okay cheers!

2009-12-13T17:21:00.002+08:00

I feel so bloated-.-Haha anyway i suddenly thought about all those times we have mass in school and i thought about the songs they played during mass?I think i kinda miss that.HAHAHAHAHA so anyway, went for tim sum with mel n yewj today, nothing quite like sg but cant complain. Haha went home after n mug around then we tried to get mel's old car back on the road n its this really old vintage beetle.Haha it worked!Haha so we drove it down to the shop to get it checked etc etc. Headed to Mega after n warehouse. Got slushie with ice cream then came home n didnt do much really. Showered, had dinner watched Grow your own n now im here. I think my tummy is feeling a wee bit sick. This morning was sunny but the rain comes n go. Now, its just pouring hard out.Sian.

Gardens clinic tml. Im gona tell them its my last week n enjoy the rest of my time here doing whatever i want or nothing at all. Got to embrace this dull boring slow pace cause once im back in sg, theres no stopping. Im feeling sleepy n its something i need to embrace too cause i am back to that period of time where i just cant sleep till like 2-3am.Its damn annoying.

Sian.

Cheers!

2009-12-12T13:22:00.003+08:00

Today is a gloomy day cause its raining. Not heavy but its wet which means SIAN. And i woke up feeling like i slept with my head curled up abit like a hang over. Headaches. Dont you just hate them? Haha anyway went to collect our new dining table with Mel n Yewj n we did a big clean out when we got back. Haha we can only hope it last.

Valerie is a grumpy face now, lets hope pms leaves her soon. Haha

People over tonight for dinner. Sian.

Cheers!

"I suck with words, but sometimes words aren’t the thing. Love isn’t about words, it’s about what you do. And what I did, running away, it was stupid. We both know love is a big, scary, evil concept. But if you feel it, it’s going to follow you around like a hungry dog. I didn’t mean to say that love is a dog. I just mean I’m not going anywhere. I love you. If love beats us up, let’s just beat it up right back. We can do this. If you’re ready to make the jump, I’ll be right there to catch you."

—How to Deal

2009-12-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

Hurry up come onlineeeeeeeee.Im sleepy:/

2009-12-01T12:38:00.002+08:00

Thanks valerie lee, youre amazing with all these kinda stuff(: I could never have done it myself.Hahaha

2009-12-01T11:52:00.001+08:00

MABEL CHEAH YOU BETTER LOVE ME LONG TIME.